Monday, June 30, 2008

14.75% done through school.













Tsk, I am sick of school: the freeloaders...the people who just dun know when to stop, the meaningless pretentious-ness, gosh~

But of course, im feeling sick only because i just got back my useless D-grade questionnaire so thank my sucky grade for the entertainment you will receive through this post. And there are seriously people whom their social skills just suck! oops :x

Man, but i cant judge how other people live, and their darn reality. Since, i've yet to find mine. so well~

a-heh, until then...
You know the public transport system is a huge hunting ground for retards. Today I present you,

Dan's Guide to Identifying Public Transport Retards

  • The Stiff-backed: The no.1 retard you see on public transport, they sit at the edges of their seats after their frantic dash to one. They are like, allergic to the body heat of the previous seat user and seem to sit like that in the retarded position for the rest of the trip- at the frigging edge of the seat. tsk.
  • The Rhino: This one confirm you have seen one, they always must die-die push and shove their way in one, they are usually cranky because they afraid if they stuck at the front of the bus wait kena accident they first to die. but those retards forget that accident can happen at the back if another vehicle hit from behind.
  • The PDA's: People who seem to love to enact some love scenes from some crummy show, but in reality they just suffer from low esteem, thats why they feel the need to show-off in public, their deprived state, by making out with a steel metal pole, safety handle included.
  • The Loose-Jaws: Characterized by people with huge lung power but horribly lousy control on their jaws, being unable to keep their voices in, they become a human loud speaker, their tools include handphones and having a companion and they are, in theory, people who need the attention and love to share about their sad life and their basta*d boyfriend, or toto lost. In reality, they just need a tight slap.
  • The Deaf and the Dumbnest: 2nd-hand loose jaws, this species are usually typical teenagers, (the dumb sec sch kind) who blast the bus or train with the crappy music they listen to. The unwanted noise irks people but victims cant seem to reach the offenders because of either the loudnest of the noise, or the huge pressure pushing them away by the soundwaves. (hulk quality) To top it off, these retards, when traveling in a group, when they wish to communicate, they have no sense to lower their broken handphones and instead, scream over the noise, causing people near-by to be traumatised by their incredibly shrill duck voice. utter retards and completely classic.
  • The Normal-tard: The last breed of retards, are normal people like YOU and me, who sitting beside one of the above mentioned retards, refuse to do anything or even move away. Which is why you're probably a retard and I have to dedicate a species just to you.
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Anyways, back to work, hope u folks enjoyed it.

Sunday, June 29, 2008

Its going to be a thoughtful post, this one.

As I sit down to type this, on a wimp of thought, I finally ask myself the question that has been nagging me for quite some time:

What is my reality?

Now, its gonna be rather emo, but I think I have to settle some things in my life before I can go on, I realized this after walking through crowds, empty buildings, that my life is going to suck at the pace im going.

You know, as I set down that day at ourspace, I think it was the day after I spoke with my lecturer and “realized” that I needed a degree to well, earn more money next time.
Which like, brought me back from running away from “slacking”.

So I was at ourspace right, and I was looking at all the students there, most of them were dota-ing and playing CS and I was musing to myself that life is like a race, and that there are distractions all around, and all of us, given the same time, are competing in that race and people will get stopped or slowed by different distractions.

Only people who know what they want and are determined will get what they want in the end. Its like a survival game, distractions all about are testing your will of achieving your desires at the end.

I know it sounds REALLY cliché BUT im not kidding, I kinda realize that in a grownup sorta way.

It’s like,

As I walk through crowds, I feel alone. A stream of people. Again, people have their own lives, people have their own notion of reality, they live the life they work for. And, everyone there has their…own life.

I read a phrase before: “Reality is defined by what one chooses to see”. Reality is what we want to see and accept. It means a lot, when I think about it. I can see my life as alright, enjoyable, and I can see my life as a pain. Or I can also see my life as being fortunate, you get the idea

And that’s why im trying to define my reality.

I know I’m fickle, lazy, lacking of discipline, I kid myself about the future. But for some reason I know it but I cant push myself. I dunno, im always motivating myself and then I always slacken after the initial hoo-har. You know, even in how I relate to people, I try to be cool, shoot out fancy hilarious punch lines, but I always revert to the same lame shit, kinda like an attention seekin- alright yeah, so I do love attention. Zzz.

You know, it’s so hard to revamp yourself and start out again. Im desperate. Desperate to change myself.

Spiritually, physically, mentally, relationships…

I feel like screaming “WHY?!!” but I can’t… I’m feeling so tired…can someone guide me? Encourage me, now I know and appreciate all the “dun stress, cheer up, all the best” things, but that’s not what I need. Sure it helps, but I need to find a new reality.

Seriously. My mood just changed, im feeling tired and frustrated.

And please, I’m not depressed or not, im just “bearing my soul” *sigh*.

I’ll probably wake up tomorrow…like nothing happened.

I have to think of my reality. Dramatic as it sounds, im feeling hollow inside. Mid-life crisis? No…just. Really feeling that everything I do is- there’s nothing in it. No passion, no purpose, I dunno how to describe it, but…

Think of me, and hope for my reality. I will seek my purpose. And find my reality.

[I will post as soon as I get it]

Friday, June 20, 2008

ho-hum..

alright...now school is starting, and i'm honestly never felt dreading so much to have to go back to school. grrrr. but enough of that. Today, i follow the typical blog format of ranting~ heh.

(chunk of words ahead. warning folks)

You know how these days in movie thrillers, they use those gothic/gregorian chants as their background music, and how much its an overkill, like even now for those seriously no-link comedy kinda shows they use these chants. Its like, honestly, ever since LOTR came out and stuff, people have been using the chants. liek spider man?

This summer
{thnng thnng}
A man
{whe al lu v creme pas ta, u kno u luv creeme pas tah, i knno i luv kreme pasta-ah-ahh-ah-ah}
Will face his destiny
{como estars, unos dos tres, cuantro cinco ses sieta-ah-ah-ah}
A hero
{oche nueve dos donde vive
}
Will be revealed
{mit su bi shi, *clang* to yo ta-ah *clang* bee emm dubdue will tra-ah-ah-sh all}
"Lets see whos behind the mask"
{thnng}

:s , yeah, you get my point, seriously, i think i was watching the incredible turk and the thrillers before that were for "you dun mess with the luohans" and there were the chants again =.=
Anyways, i found the ad our lecturers showed us, i guess its appropriate for this subject.

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a-heh.

Anyways, i got tagged by HZ. and thus i have to oblige. :D
The "rules" i dunwanna copy-paste to troublesome.

so.

Q: If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
That people stop asking me what dreams i want come true, there's a reason why its called a dream y'know. tsk.

Q: What will you dream wedding be like?
Are you saying i wont get married? :D

Q: Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
Sure, if you're driving on the PIE and u see some guy lying on the road, would'nt you be too?

Q: What's the best thing that ever happened to you?
Born awesome.

Q: Which is more blessed? loving someone or being loved?
I dunno?? I'm widely loved :x

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
There's no need to wait, like i said, i'm irresistible *winks*

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
Nothing? she would be attached to me?

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
Sure, school?

Q: Is being tagged fun?
hmmm, if i had to copy-paste so many questions...you think leh? troublesome la, but give you something to blog about. but copy-pasting still suc...

Q: How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
OLD, but still younger then Mark (I can hear the "OHhhhhh"s)

Q: Who are currently most important to you?
My fans, thank you so much for your support. bollocks. nope, erm, im gonna pass, mushy stuff dun go well with me in public areas.

Q: What kind of person do you think is the person who tagged you?
(which happened to be Hong Zhuo), erm, slave-driver? make me copy-paste so much!!! and still must change font!!! you siao ah?!
heh heh. no la, he's a nice guy, erm, could try to mince he's words a lil' though. im SUPER sensitive can?! but i know you guys still love me.~~~

Q: Would you be single and rich or married but poor?
OF COURSE single and rich la? wtf no brainer. im studying now how you want me to be married? and if im rich now, i quit school go get married la! =.=

Q: What have you always wanted to do but never did?
Experience how sucide feels like? and attending my funeral, see my fans weep. But i cant :x LOL so yeah. (eh guys, im not depressed, dun send me "are you okay?" messenges, if you do, i will post them on my blog.)

Q: Whats the first thing you do every morning?
Open my eyes. (honestly these questions are getting dumber by the minute)

Q: Would you give all in a relationship?
This is vague, if you're talking about BGR which im going to assume...then duh la, i think its expected. erm, and i mean serious BGR, not those act cute flirt heads that sleep together on MRT trains and...

Q: If you had a chance to meet one of your idols/heroes, who would it be?
Jesus, 'cept he ain an idol =.= he's a hero guy? but seriously, it will make life easier?? lol. maybe i should just say Michael Jackson instead? yeah right omg...no la, my hero/idol?...always in the mirror.

Q: What type of friends do you like?
honestly i read "what type of fans do you like?". erm, do you mean you have friends you dun like? they are called enemy or acquaintances, not friends? =.=

Q: Do you have a pet?
wtf, stupid question. i refuse to answer it.

Q: What type of friends do you dislike?
=.=

Q: 8 people im tagging?
honestly, i lazy make them suffer. But~

1. Mr. Yi Ren
2. Mark
3. Glenn
4. Ying Hao
5. Tabitha
6. Harkrishan (to give her something to do for her new blog)
7. Sze Li
8. Shirgin

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heh.

Anyways~~~ next rant, my emoticons are lagging, seriously. it'd erm...disturbing. but its not as bad as ebay, NB cheat my feeling! you know arh, i want to sell my art right?! then i type everything nicely for the listing on ebay
{eee bhey pas ta}
...then i choose nicely so i dun have to pay any money to list the stuff
{no kkneed mah-ah-knee}
then broadband error >.< (wha-aht the pass-ta) then i redo already, then click next page
{eets find nelly la-as-ah-st pa-heh-he-ge}
payment thru visa or mastercard??? OMG WTpasta!!! i use UOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NB cheat my feeling!!! and time!! wah lao... T_T

Ouh, and i've been killing my phone. >_< . drop here, scratch there, reboot, drop again, *sigh* now got ugly scratch. tsk. but my phone still good condition okay! can sell on ebay quality leh! except no master card *sulks*, my phone condition better then the ezlink sensor after those aunties come on bus la!

What aunties? you know those aunties that die-die keep their purse in their handbag, then when they go on bus must scan ezlink they lazy take out. then they ram the ezlink machine with their bag *thud*. yeah, especially when they cant get the sensor to sense their ezlink they hit harder *thud thud*. the only reason why it cant work is because they hit it so much. =.= then they complain "eh! i pay good money for public transport and now simple things liddat also cant work" then the bus driver will go "eh auntie, you havent pay right? spoil u pay siimii lan? _ off" then the auntie will go "wtpasta!" *THUD* then sbs will put notice, "our drivers have the right not to be abused" LOL. silly aunties.

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Another thing i gotta rant about is people always asking me, eh when you gonna take your basic knownledge? then im liek huh?? they say aiyo, driving la! you dun want drive meh?!....... NOOOO, im honestly, not interested in driving, at least, not yet. so stop pestering me, dun ask me why can? you think i so much time learn to drive and when i can listen mp3/play psp/sleep/use handphone while my parents drive i gotta drive? no ty. i rather rest, esp since petrol cost going up, one day cars cannot use cauz no petrol im gonna lol at those people who learn driving. see lah, learn drive now no car drive right?! waste time, waste money! now must learn how to ride bicycle! but seriously, tsk, i lazy cycle from pasir ris to ngee ann poly, let no petrol day come after i graduate!

Oh and seriously ah, Singaporeans cant drive! my dad will get highblood pressure if this keeps up, honestly, people speed, people have ugly behavior, pedestrians think their lau peh road, eh, actually my dads name is on one of the roads, but dun tell your, wait your make fun, but its a decent NICE name, so dun worry. So as i was saying, anything to do with cars, road, pedestrians just make me have a bad after taste la. stooopid drivers! *sigh* i sound childish yes, wtf. but still, i cant stand, okay not the cars and roads? but the people tsk...

our society sucks, but good thing still got me.

Friday, June 13, 2008

now to reap.

Well~ I finished it yesterday, the third day of painting. Nothing much to say 'cept let you guys see.

The Red Vase (Day light)


The Red Vase (Yellow Lighting)


The Red Vase (Close-up, Yellow Lighting)

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So anyways, all's that's left is to sell it online, since my parents found the painting gloomy~ heh. Anyways, i'll be back doing my homework and start doing my second painting after that.


Oh, and I saw my brother off the airport yesterday~ some sec school overseas trip thingy~ so cool, imagine going with cca/class/close friends to australia for one week...T_T im so envious. My only trip like this was when i was a missionary in India, went for some model united nations thing, to Delhi, with 2 other class mates. In a rickerty train, and we were'nt even close la. Still, it was fun and exciting. heh...

Nothing much to do not. 'cept work. jeez.

Miss Camofont?

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Progress

This is what i've got done in 2 days, i think i'll complete it by tomorrow and can improve on it for another day.


Left with the table and petals to improve on, well. so there.

Monday, June 9, 2008

Insurance and dignity.

Since my experience last Saturday night, i've been more inspired to write a guide to eating chilli crabs without feeling stressed out by people watching you eat. Therefore, presenting:

Dan's Guide to Enjoying your crab with Dignity:

Stopping short of wearing kelvar to eat your crabs, here are some simple ways to enjoy that piece of garbage while retaining some form of dignity.

1. Reserve the entire restaurant so that only your family and the waiter is there to witness your horrible gorging and pawing.

2. Buy crab sticks

3. Take away.

4. Get a boyfriend or Girlfriend, seriously. It's their job.

5. Make a game out of it and con your little cousins into shelling crab for you.

6. Do not wear long sleeves white shirts.

7. Act like a starved up monster, that way, people don't bother if you eat like crab ~ heh, that, or you can wipe your mouth and your hands every few seconds and appear dainty.

8. Master chopsticks, till grade 8, the point where you can apply pressure to a 'chi' spot on the crab shell thus disintegrating the shell into non-existence.

9. Skip the crab dish.

10. Request that the chef crack the shell before serving it up.

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Anyways, i'm thinking on insurance...not that im afraid of getting run over accidentally, or breaking my limbs in a maths test, but rather for the interest rate. But of course, 'sicko' and my parents have made me come to dread the insurance shit.

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Anyways, I've bought art stuff!!! and it made me appreciate Mark, yeah i know, without his art friend membership card, i paid $84++ for canvas and paint omggg.


Anyways, im gonna work on my art project, probably mount it in the house or sell it online. I mean, i can finally satisfy my artsy side and benefit from it! My dad said he'll pay for my art materials if its used for decos and if i sell it online, i'll do a minimum of 100-200 dollars for it. heh heh. Im not saying im good, but i think its worth that much. But i'll post pictures on the painting process.

heh heh heh, gonna meet my insurance agent tomorrow, meet the gang for dinner. Do art and attempt homework. ouh well. attempt homework, yeah right.

Monday, June 2, 2008

Golden Jubilee

staying cool, going on 50.

ouh shit.
what a great way to start my fiftieth post. yeah, i know it took pretty long in the coming, sure i dun blog daily, but im finally at the number 50~
-so i digress. well anyways, i wanted to make a special (funny) video to commemorate the 50th post but i guess its too troublesome to do so, so nvm, anyways, i though maybe you guys might wanna check out my MM leadership video instead, funny as well :D or lame =.=.

Anyways, it comes in 4 parts cauz the file is like 200mb but blogger only allows 100 mb zzz so i gotta re-edit and break up into four since 2 100mb files are also huge to upload.

Anyways, my entire family knows about my blog now ~~~ tsk. im not gonna lock my blog since it'll be unfair to the other people who want to view my blog so i'll just mind my language a lil' erm...i think thats abt it.

Well, i havent been blogging for quite a week now, but the news i have is, the hols are coming along. So, cool~ got work to do, but got sleep to sleep as well. whee~

Ben wants to organize paintball thingy. basically, shoot people dressed in colouful pyjamas with paintballs that hurt. that, and run about hollering in a CS kinda environment. that and finding youre out of ammo and the opposite team chases you to shoot you at close range. you raise up your hands to surrender and they think it makes a perfect shooting board. you plead to share a few bullets and they pass it too you through the gun. you scream "enough" and they start- nvm, i'll just melee them with my empty gun...
:S oops I digress. anyways. i got assignments to do with these 2 weeks but still-

It should be cool to hang out.

okay so its mrm tutorial and im blogging but still~

I dun have anything else to say, and im waiti- zzz its taking too long wah lao, i feel like not waiting and heck care the videos, but wait you guys think, "nb cheat my feeling" (haha i learn that from Glenn, love how it sounds~ i mean esp if u say in lian-style) so yah, blogger also, nb cheat my feeling now have to upload 4 videos of 49mb omg la. why does this happen on my Golden Jubilee!!!! zzzz nvm i try uploading on youtube now~

So while waiting, lets contemplate the meaning of the peace in uploading. like yo' momma' jokes:
-thou uploads so long, the internet became absolute by the time youre done~
-thou uploads so long, (erm...) thou fairs better doing a world-tour version of your video~
-thou uploads so long, nvm, zzzzzzzzzzzzz i cant think up good ones.

zzzz i hope youtube didnt hang tsk,
nvm la lol i dun care le, so, cheat your feeling!