Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Life.

I had a good talk with Ben a few moments ago. apparently we found out that we both share the same problems with life.

Now before i proceed, anyone who feels that i'm crap and that my friends are all alike- full of shit and stuff, I don't care anymore. I know I'm with a group of people who appreciate me for who I am and that I can count on them. So no matter how much shit you're going to throw my way,

-I've learned, it doesn't matter.

Ben and I share this problem, that we cannot be ourselves in our lives without facing shit from at least someone. There are people in your life who just seem to have issues with you and that whatever they symbolize or represent, they threaten you.

But I realised through talking with him, that I had the answers in my face all along. You can't please everyone, you are who you are, and you do things that you can live with at the end of the day. You do not live for anyone. And that at the end of the day, there are 2 things that really matter, that you can live with yourself, and that there are people in your life, that you truely, know, care for you and appreciate you, heck yes, even love you.

So i said my piece. I know what I live for again.

Thanks to all who have always been there for me, and thanks for those who intend to be. It's true that quantity does not matter, its the quality of the relationships.

I love, and I live.

This song is dedicated to Ben. Cheers.

Monday, May 19, 2008

In-class blogging.

Yes, Im blogging as i sit in MM class, i got a paltry 9.5/15 for the MM test while Din did a frigging 14/15.

I tuned out after that.

We learned POA during MM and it was the same stuff with different terms. After a year without poa...zzz

So. we were done with the in class assignment and i was blogging and thus i decided to blog on Gears of War 2!!!!!!!!! oommggg its OUT!!!...in november 2008.

Apparently at a preview, people complained about the level of violence in the game, like the chainsaw melee parts. What used to be a shave in the head has evolved into a cut-guy-into-half-in-painful-way-starting-from-groin in Gears 2. =.= i mean, even if you start from the head, you'll eventualy hit the groin =.= .

Another new feature is the use of enemies as a meat shield, it doesnt have anything to being fat, it just means u pick up the bunch of aliens corpse that were previously trying to kill you and shield yourself against their buddies, hoping they dont shoot their fallen comrade. so cute~ like they care, alien virtues can?

Anyways, the game is rated mature, which means kiddies under 16 cant play,
good! leave them study their olevel la. but it also means those with no xbox 360 cant play T_T which means me. neh mind, i go my uncle house play :D ...in november....during school....(sigh).

oh well gears 2 ftw.

hat-trick (dumb phrase, wth they call it hat trick anyway? no link :o)

Heh, so I went to e-hub! today, adn seriously, for the tenth-ty two timeth, felt that their entrance sign font needs some makeover if they wanna attract more teens, like "pimp my font", no bauhaus please. So i went there anyways, for dinner, and it was okay la, small, new, ookay.. and erm, there was this havannas shop la. And i needed slippers cauz mine is ancient, like, some relic, and i thought to buy one.

then...

$39.90 WTF!...i mean liek oommg la. its bloody slippers, wth mine was like $12 ++ back then, you tell me inflation also not enough. I rather buy those at school Cheers la, those $9.90 de, those kind you walk around campus then suddenly you find 20 other people wearing the same slippers like some subtle mafia group liddat. zzz. seriously, then before i left my mom said she saw a $89.90 pair of slippers ._.

Anyways, for the uninitiated, theres POA in MM, yes, ****ing POA in media studies zzzz. POA is fun, easy, but a heck of a lot of trouble and lines and calculating to go through. (sigh)


Ouh, and i gave up (i didnt even try) on editing the pen spinning clips on final cut, so here's some raw footages. I got lots more but they were slanted....(they were shot during evening sermon :x) you guys cant look at clips at a right degree angle cant you?



:D and then,



Well, I actually blogged for 3 days straight, quite a feat, when you got 6 more deadlines to go in 3 weeks...anyone got any plans for art festival assignment tell me can? i got no plans yet.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Quick Camofont instant update.

lol, so i got great feed back for camofont.

first off:

reminisce says: (10:12:45 PM)
how~
(R)Dorcas says: (10:12:57 PM)
..
(R)Dorcas says: (10:12:59 PM)
?
(R)Dorcas says: (10:13:16 PM)
what am i supposed to be looking at exactly?
reminisce says: (10:13:19 PM)
its camofont
reminisce says: (10:13:24 PM)
a new font invented
reminisce says: (10:13:29 PM)
only smart ppl can read

then mark, (ouh dorcas is tabitha btw)

Superman. says: (10:14:52 PM)
hehe
Superman. says: (10:15:21 PM)
Camofont
Superman. says: (10:15:22 PM)
kicks
Superman. says: (10:15:24 PM)
ass
reminisce says: (10:15:29 PM)
heh heh heh
reminisce says: (10:15:33 PM)
must give credit to me
reminisce says: (10:15:36 PM)
in camofont

lol. and then nick! :D

Resolution. A Higher Purpose. Constant Vigilance and Determination. An Epiphany. Never Give Up. Nothing Else Matters. says: (10:21:14 PM)
never talk about me sia
Resolution. A Higher Purpose. Constant Vigilance and Determination. An Epiphany. Never Give Up. Nothing Else Matters. says: (10:21:17 PM)
wah lao
Resolution. A Higher Purpose. Constant Vigilance and Determination. An Epiphany. Never Give Up. Nothing Else Matters. says: (10:21:21 PM)
i figured out immediatly

okay luh...you good la. i fair hor

anyways, camofont, words paint a thousand pictures. camofont, paints a blank one.

orh this just came in!

Resolution. A Higher Purpose. Constant Vigilance and Determination. An Epiphany. Never Give Up. Nothing Else Matters. says: (10:22:49 PM)
Dorcas says:
...i was just made a fool by dan and mark
Dorcas says:
-.-
Dorcas says:
did you read dan's blog?
Resolution. A Higher Purpose. Constant Vigilance and Determination. An Epiphany. Never Give Up. Nothing Else Matters. says:
LOL
Resolution. A Higher Purpose. Constant Vigilance and Determination. An Epiphany. Never Give Up. Nothing Else Matters. says:
yes yes dan told me
Dorcas says:
WA

Resolution. A Higher Purpose. Constant Vigilance and Determination. An Epiphany. Never Give Up. Nothing Else Matters. says: (10:23:02 PM)
Dorcas says:
HE TELL THE WHOLE WORLD
Dorcas says:
HE GOOD
Resolution. A Higher Purpose. Constant Vigilance and Determination. An Epiphany. Never Give Up. Nothing Else Matters. says:
HAHA
Resolution. A Higher Purpose. Constant Vigilance and Determination. An Epiphany. Never Give Up. Nothing Else Matters. says: (10:23:58 PM)
tues u gonna get pwned by tab

yes thats right
im good~

~~~

I love camofont

Highlight what is naught.

Lol. so i thought of making a video of my amazing pen spinning skills which i honed during lectures, but apparently final cut does not support footage from my lousy phone cam. So you guys gotta wait a few more days until i feel compelled to do it. either that or sit beside me in lecture.

Mark just asked me what the latest car ad was, i said "i-car". haha random, yes.

Anyways, i'll talk about acronyms today.

In secondary school, when i didnt use msn and stuff yet, my friends used to go, "lol" and i was like, if you are amused, just smile, or laugh. Dont say "lol" liek, zzzz. budden, nowadays, i catch myself sometimes going "lol".

okay, now i know that was a poor attempt of an intro in trying to do philosophical entries like Mark, well sorry, im not a nerd. or geek. or Mark for that instance.

SO, as i was saying, we should stop using acronyms, cauz they sux, and dat they just spoil ur englash. liek i deed naught get any aze in sack sch when i started sms-ing cauz i triad to tok cool, liek, liek dat. C wat i mean. my english just plummeled.

okay la, i know its confusing and starting to sound downright crappy.

but! i think we should all reconsider the way we speak! fantastic!

damn, now i know how much skill it takes to sound smart when u got crappy content. liek Mar...

haha no la, basically, my post was just to point out that lol does not mean youre laughing out lard. stop using lol, lmao, rofl when ure just simply smiling behind you comp screen, savvy?

btw, I hope ur did not have to much trouble in reading this. just highlight! (sorry, dumb thing to say at the end of the post.)

~~~

Happy Vesak Day y'all~

Friday, May 16, 2008

reserved emotions.

you know how we all want to be dramatic, to be the capturer of everyone's attention.

I know, that there are many times i feel like doing posts that reflect how i feel, all the feelings that make you want to share with the world.

I mean, thats what a blog is for right? To share yourself with the world. yet,

to be considerate, im sure, friends, all that we share bonds with,

I dun think you guys would want to read emo post and stuff right?

I believe in being reserved. to taking care of my readers, entertainment,

Im about brightening people's day. not about dragging them down.

so you ask me, and i ask myself, wtf is this post doing on my blog?!!

heh. im smiling, alived, and forgived of all transgressions.

Thursday, May 15, 2008

try me.

ive learn and realised something new today.
and i was disappointed in the process, yet my eyes were opened.
Im pumped and fired up. all the more ready.
work harder. gambatte dayo.

mood is, disgusted, pissed, disappointed, optimistic, and fired up = bandung rojak.

Monday, May 12, 2008

For now.

Alright everybody, sorry, been away all weekend from blogging, been trying to meet the deadlines, and for now, everything's been accomplished, at least, until tomorrow when I open my diary planner...

So I figured I better do some upkeeping first before it all builds up again.


Well, no. 1- Happy Mother's Day to all, We all love our moms' But I love MY mom more then you guys love her so I want to thank her alot, I got her a card but she said I spoilt the lovely card with my horrible handwriting :D and who taught me to write? lol.


Anyways, On 9th May was Mark's Birthday. So Happy Birthday Mark, you're older now but you're still as crapp- I mean, as jolly as ever...


And yesterday, the 11th of May was Eugene's and MY 18th Birthday. heh heh, I'm older now as you can see, Thanks everyone for the smses, oms, wishes, treats, celebrations and err, boxers, yes thanks to the folks at Ngee Ann who bought me boxers O.o and for baking great cookies. Thanks alot.


Went out today to eat at Mad Jack's to celebrate Mark's and my Birthday and informally, the completion of some pathetic deadlines. Mark got me icecream at island creamery heh.

Right now, I'm slacking in my pants, not boxers, YET, no stress for the next 8 hours until I hit school and start my planning.

I've learn to do my work early while possible and not slack but I guess I'll dota nick during 3 hr break tomorow and Ben soon.

Everything's fine, I'm older now, I dunwanna learn to drive, I'm reshuffled some priorities- but havent implement them yet, all is fine. I'm still an anti-fuss person as well as a dun-like-troublesome-shit person, but i'm learning to be even more flexible. All is cool~

Yes it all is, for now.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Weary, i'm weary.
Will update pretty soon.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

you think?

Bonds...
Friendship.
Pretentious.
Deluded.

This life doesn't encourage you to be yourself.
So love yourself more than others and you'll be fine.

Fragility.
Jealousy.
Disdain.

Get over these emotions
and simply hate.

Self-pity...
Sadistic pleasure.
Irony.

You're weak...
Why, are you weak?
...Because you lack hate.

I understand.

Friday, May 2, 2008

Sighing is an indulgence.

hmmm. It disturbs me, having to rewrite how i begin this blog post, seriously, I think the upcoming lead writing test is affecting me- not that I've yet to prepare for it, but I did rewrite several opening statements before settling on the one you guys are happening to read.

Anyways, I was doing my brand ad analysis on tuesday (I think), was searching for ads when i came across the below pic.


Now, I mean, this wasn't exactly that which caught my eye, you know, how when turning the pages you get the bends and folds....okay fine, I mean, aside-it's disturbing for me to search through girl magazines at the atrium, ask tabitha, I was like *flip flip flip~* and the pages would'nt end!!!! wah lao, I mean like the magazine ah, seriously damn thick la, so many (rubbish) ads and articles....which seriously is dumb. (I just caught myself, I know its like digressing pluss rambling combined, much like mark's blog)


So yeah, what I actually noticed while frantically flipping through pages was this (above)


hahaha, childish la, but still...


Anyways, went with the guys yesterday to catch Iron Man at Vivo. Sherd wanted to watch at GV Max so we went for the 9 p.m show. Lasted 2 hours...I say it's enjoyable la. 3.5-4 stars, partly because of the effects and hilarious antics.


And I managed to catch the last train AND last bus home, heh heh heh...

(OKAY! now usually I'd end with something liddat BUT I got some miscellaneous things to clear up)

Firstly, I'm in the harmonica troupe now, I got a new chromatic harmonica which is bigger then my cute old(er) one, it has two more holes as well and a button which makes it look ugly. (I wanted to post a pic of it but lazy la.) Surprise, Keenan's in the troupe too, and I think I need more friends to join me >.T ... I was hearing the seniors play and it was really really cool and I can't wait to start playing as well, I say this because the first practice was a horror, I had to learn to read musical notes, like quivers, and trebleclefs (the tau gay things), real dry. But I think we can start playing real soon :D

Ookay so anyways, glenn tagged me, as a result I'll humor her and you guys by answering this questionaire

1. At what age do you wish to marry?

Hmmm, I'd say like, 24 would be nice but I suppose I'll be working and studying and stuff, my dad helped me calculate before and he said like around 28 liddat to be financially secure....zzz thats like 10 years from now la...I'll be so old....so oldd >.<

2. If your best friend and lover both have some weird illness they are about to die from and there's only one bottle of medicine to cure them but not enough for both,who will you choose to give it to?

Hohoho, that's simple, I'll give it to the doctors to make another antidote and give it to both of them la...either that or I'll let them fight it out for it...or sell it on ebay.

3.Are you happy with your current life?

I'm happy, but not satisfied. I have this hit list of people to...

4.What super power would I like to have?

hmmm, that's....interesting...maybe the ability to down ALOT of food and not get fat -alright! or else I'll love to be lucky...as in like, luck reincarnated.

5.If you have one dream to come through,what would it be?

For my friends, family and myself to be alright and enjoying life as it is, if that can't be done, then I hope that I will live the "no regret life". like staying true to myself and all that overused clique shit that takes the intensity of the meaning out of clique itself...(I hope I spely clique right, lazy check)

6.If you have another dream to come through?What would it be?

zzzzzzzzzzzz, now then you ask....that means, my third dream is to eat instant noodles without all the msg and wax rubbish cancer sickness and stuff.

7.What are you afraid to lose now?

I'm afraid to lose my contact lense when I'm outside, especially in those smelly public toilets.

8.How do you find yourself?A friendly person?

Orh come on! Friendly? no la, I'm a lazy person, or a person who finds alot of things troublesome, but I know what I have to do and what is worth sacrificing. so yeap.

9.If you meet someone you love,would you confess to him?

Omg NOOO! I'm straight la c'mon why would I like a guy to begin with?

10.How do you spend your 200 bucks if you have to?

Hmmm, on alot of clothes, outward appearance, and give the remaining $180 to my savings account.

11.What requirements must your other half have?

Humor, easy going, nice smile, definately be female, otherwise, erm, let's see, doesn't mind me being a house husband LOL, no la, anything la.

12.What kind of person do you hate most?

People who are obliviously disrespectful to authority. or those F**K inconsiderate people.

13.Do you wish to cherish every single second of your friendship?

With who? if its like those I make use...no la jkjk nia. I suppose i do.

14.Would you rather be alone than in a group?

I love my alone emotic times, but I get enough of that when I'm in the train or bus to school, so in other words I got a balance.

15.What do you think is the most important things in life?

Food, Friends, Family, Fun, Sleep...

16.If you ever get a billion dollars,where do you want it to come from?

From myself, which is unlikely.

17.At this point in time,would you rather stay in your comfort zone or try something new?

Stay in my comfort zone and sleep, it's too troublesome...

18.What kind of friend do you want to be in your friend's eyes?

Does it matter? I do not let anyone determine my behavior. (oooh, my wallpaper just changed [desktoptopia] I got an american flag lol.)

19.If you have a chance,what part of the character would you like to change?

What do you mean I "have a chance" If I want to, I'll change it.

20
. If you have freedom,what do you want to do?

Don't I already have freedom? Unless you're talking financial freedom...I'll wander and travel around Japan enjoying the inns, the food, the climate, the scenary, the chio bu, the traditions, the heritage, the modernity, the respect, the romantic-ness. *sighs*


Alright...so thats the end of that, and I think it's a rather long post, I feel like saying something emo so dun read on if you're not in the mood

End.

Emotik section begins here.

Alright la, I mean, there are things you want to do, and have to do, like WoT, "death is lighter then a feather, duty heavier then a mountain". Like seriously I have to work, but I still find time to procrastinate and sensationalize it on this blog. Lol O.o I know I have to do something but I don't wanna do it. It sucks can, and I want to dota right now...But I got a lot of things to do...I agreed with Ben yesterday that we gotta do work from today onwards but right now I just feel so lazy, so tired....seriously it's a struggle and it downright sucks that everyday you plan to achieve something but you end up procrastinating it away...this days, I think of things I have to do as "just do, don't think". I mean, last time it was "enjoy and appreciate the work", it's like Iron Man, thinking in terms of missions now rather then self pleasure which seriously goes against my prsonality...but no use thinking because thinking wont get you anywhere...I got to start doing now. Just do, dun think.

Cheers. If there's any cause for it.